Friday, August 28, 2009

a lesson from Brook Lynne Carter*

You guys all know how much I love the blog Lost in Brook, while I was blogging this morning I came across a post that I think everyone needs to read. While this post is about her personal battles, you could easily take the word [stripper] out and [insert] what it is you do. And while no one wants to admit it, there is a person who YOU don't like.... but your friends with them on twitter/myspace/facebook/downelink [or any of these other sites] and you go to their profile every once and a while [or more for you other people] and you creep.. we all creep.. and if you say you don't i say [bs].... how else do you know what they are doing with their pathetic life... but at the end of the day [who is more pathetic?]

ponder that for the day, and enjoy the post.

Lesson 34:
Why are you so obsessed with me?

i get an AMAZING amount of support from a lot of people, whom iv never had the pleasure of meeting, and probably never will. i get emails daily as well as comments on my blog and/or tweets from people who tune into my aimless journaling-which i never thought would be read by so many people, giving me kudos and just general encouragement. i am forever grateful and thankful for peoples open minds, which i am not trying to change, just enlighten.
on the flip side..when does a natural interest turn into a daily habit, and then a guilty pleasure, and eventually turning into an obsession? when do we start having control over the urge to be fixated on something that we later feel guilty for indulging in? or controlling the obsession of being destructive or malice. not to say that the people who SUPPORT me are obsessed at all..but i am speaking of the people who indirectly support me with their anonymous foot traffic on my blog, leaving comments that are more like attacks, rather than "differences" in opinion.

Passion is a positive obsession. Obsession is a negativepassion.

the internet (the NEW home of the brave) has become a cowards playground. a place where anyone can assume an identity and feel free to release anything that internally disturbs them without having the retribution of argument, or looking miserable or angry. unfortunately my blog has fallen victim to unhappy people who's guilty pleasure, being my blog, has turned into some kind of phantom fetish-which allows people who dislike strippers, strip clubs etc, to vent via my site about how disgusting and awful it is that i dance, without disclosing their identity OR ever having to convey this to me face to face. and i can always respect an opinion and/or a belief, religious or not, what i can not understand is the freak obsession that comes with being "anti-brook". if you dislike what i do, which leads you to dislike me, why do you tune in? why do you subject yourself to a lifestyle that infuriates you so much that you leave nasty comments of judgement?

while most people would call this "hate" or my "hater(s)", i disagree. i do not think this is hate. i think that this is borderline stalking. to pursue someone, indirect or not..daily, or consistently, even in a negative way, is to stalk them and/or prey on them. stalking is a crime of passion. not hate. and god bless anyone who finds enough time in their day to feel passionate about someone they dont even know. when does this turn into an obsession? when you feel moved to actually comment..with anonymity, trying to get some kind of response from the person that you have been paying attention to..secretly. you tell a friend about this stripper who has the nerve to not be ashamed. your mad. i evoke emotion in you. the person whom site you wont leave alone. that means your obsessed. dont let my site dominate your day, its ridiculous to support me with negativity, it will just empower me.

i personally do not indulge in anything or anyone that turns me off. so it is beyond me why people put in the effort of fake twitter pages/myspace pages, negative comments left by the ghosting anonymous obsessors. it almost seems like it would drain the life out of you to put so much energy into something-that by no means, has anything to do with you. i have nothing but empathy for the people who have brought so much negativity to my blog because they are either unhappy or too afraid to have their own opinion. as you can see, i am the opposite. i back my opinion and my choice to strip, everyday-with a blog, a face, and no apologies. and your STILL mad.

my passion is not stripping, it is writing. and i write about whatever i want, including but not limited to strip. dont let your passion turn into something that attacks another. disagreeing with what i do just puts you in the masses, your not alone, and that in no way offends, moves, or scares me. so why be afraid to be who you are, when there are so many like you. trust me, it takes a lot more courage for me to be who i am, with so many against me. those who take shots, and then hide their hands, are weaker than me, so i wont pick on you. please turn the channel, im a stripper, lol, and honestly i do not think that i or anyone else can stop someone elses raging intensity. the only cure for obsession, is to find another one. so, for all the folks who like to be anonymous aggressors on social networks, you may want to redirect your anger and hug it out with your parents. some how, along the way, some l-ve is greatly missing. thank you to all supporters, those who openly appreciate me and the closeted ones as well, who only come out to be negative. judging me so much, leave less time to l-ve me. :o]

"When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself."-- Wayne Dyer

to twitter is to love,

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