Monday, January 3, 2011

all smiles

Happ New Year !!

sooo, ive made some resolutions...
i wouldnt call them 'new years resolutions' because I started putting them to action before 12/31/2010....

-stop using the n-word and the b-word in everyday conversation
-stop cussing as much
-to stay single until I am 100% happy being single
-not to throw objects in anger

The one im most excited about is being single. I dont even remember the last time I was actually like... 1000% single. Like not talking to anyone, not having sex with anyone, not having to answer to anyone.... like, any of that bs. Even tho its wierd as shit, I kinda like it. This entire break, everytime I went out, i didnt have to call anyone and let them know what I was doing. I didnt have to call anyone when i woke up, or call anyone when I went to sleep. I wasnt obligated to see someone. I didnt get into many arguments.... I realized that I am free.

There is a difference between being alone and being lonely. I can say with a big smile on my face that I am alone. I am enjoying my own company. I have so much fun by MYSELF. I sing at the top of my lungs, dance around the room, take stupid pictures, play with my makeup, do my hair... and i have FUN !! i'm like on the break of tears writing this, because I have never felt like this before. Im happy... by myself... and i love it !!

i am 110% in love with myself and its the best feeling in the world.